As you may now from my previous post ‘Update’ I haven’t really been in the right mindset to write blog posts. I set a standard for myself and this means that if I feel like a post I write isn’t up to this standard I won’t post it.
I went out to dinner with a friend the other night and we had a heart to heart and it made me feel ready to write something and it got me thinking. I am the type of person who takes every little comment to heart. I still think about comments someone may have said to me years ago. A few months back a comment was said about me involving something I am really passionate about and it made me question my passion. I won’t say exactly what it was but it has made me doubt myself so much. I am an incredibly insecure person and unfortunately this means I let things eat away at me and don’t just brush them off. This comment has made me doubt myself so much even to the point where I haven’t written blog posts or filmed certain youtube videos because I feel so insecure.
Having this blog has made me feel so much more confident in myself. If you asked me a year ago if I would write a blog or make youtube videos and post them for everyone including people who know me to see I would have laughed and told you it would never happen. I want to continue with it to prove people who give me negative comments wrong and because I enjoy it and I shouldn’t let other peoples opinions effect that.
As much as I wish I wasn’t someone who doubted myself so much I am and for now I’m not sure how to change that but I am going to try my best not to let it effect me writing posts anymore. I’m sorry I’ve been so quiet but thank you for sticking with me.